Day 87 ~ I am bummed out!

Went to the cancer clinic for a CBC blood draw. Waited for the results and now I am down to 2.8 in white cell count. In the past 2 weeks it has gone down...down...down. Why? Well the nurse said stress can prevent white cells from happening. Well, I have had more stress than this in my life! My white count dropping is what is giving me the stress!! I told her I have to come in again this week and have it checked again as I HAVE to be at the CANCER BENEFIT Saturday night. It is even to low for me to get chemo on Monday! So now what? I am in the dark!

Anyway, Kay took me to lunch at Backyard Grill for lunch today. We went late, at 1:30 so that there wouldn't be a lot of people around. Then we went to Scrapbook Cottage and she bought me supplies for my birthday. My birthday isn't until Wednesday, April 9th, but we just celebrated early as we were both depressed! But we had a lot of great laughs at the Cottage. It was fun, I needed that. I thought I recognized a customer that came in to the store and said to her "I am glad you are up and about". She looked at me kind of funny and walked out (she was only confirming a class she was going to take). Well, we laughed so hard as I mistook her for someone else who has been in a nursing home for months due to a bad fall and had a lot of broken bones. The woman must have thought I was crazy telling her what I did!!!! Chemo brain!

Well, until tomorrow......pray for my white cell count to go up please.
Love, Janet