Baby Luke is 5 months old now and laughs up a storm.
Anna is 5 1/2 and in all day Kindergarten, this pic is from school.We won't see the Lafnitzeggers (Luke) until Easter....glad it's in March! Then he will be 6 months old, I can hardly wait! I am hoping to see Anna this weekend as Jenny is coming over to help me clean on Saturday. I am so tired that it seems I can only complete one task of 15 minutes and then I need a nap. The doctor said yesterday that my body went through a lot last week and it will take a while to recover. As many of you know...I am not a patient person, although right now I have to be. I want to be well....NOW. I did sleep last night, in bed, the whole night. When we woke up this morning Jeff said "congratulations". I said "for what"? He said for staying in bed all night! Poor guy, he doesn't sleep right as he is always tuned in to me. I roll over and he says "are you okay"? Right now, I am a little paranoid and I need to be touching his back, hand or whatever to make sure is he right there.....I am scared I will go in to the Septic Shock again. I guess that will pass with time too. Of course when I go through Round 3 chemo...I will be nervous about the white count dropping again. I'll be wanting my blood checked every other day. I am sure they will not do that, you know insurance issues etc. I am having a hard time with eating. A neighbor sent over some delicious soup and that went down great. I know I am not getting enough protein so I am starting today with a protein powder that I got from a co-worker and she gave me a recipe to make a smoothie. At least then I know I am getting protein. It is amazing, I don't even want to snack! I guess because of the mouth sores and a bit of nausea and feeling tired, I just plain skip eating. I have to get better at taking care of myself. With Jeff gone all day and evening at work there is no need for me to cook. (besides I just don't have it in me to do it). Then I am on a neutropenic diet for the duration of my chemo and there is so much I cannot eat. I felt so bad yesterday Jeff had a p-nut butter sandwich for lunch and cereal for supper. I pray, dear God that I get some strength back to at least take care of Jeff. He loves pizza, maybe I should just buy some frozen pizza's for him....LOL
One of my hugsisters from Hawaii posted this in my blog and I thought I would share it with you. She writes her own poetry.
I thought it was appropriate for today. Thank you Lorie.
Trusting Through The Tears
When life seems unfair
Struggles take my strength.
When my can's get harder
And they turn into I can't.
When I fight against worry
And I battle with my fears
Lord, please help me to always
Trust you through the tears.
When at times I feel alone
In all that I'm going through
When trying to be positive
Becomes so hard to do.
When desires become few
I cannot stand and cheer
Lord even in my sadness
Let me trust you through the tears.
© Lorie A. Yokum
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(((( Hugz Sistah)))) I remember what helped be get by was those Dannon smoothie yogurt drinks they helped with the stomach upset because they have acidophilus.. lol I think that's how you spell it!!. I took my pills with them also when I could not eat. I could get by the case at Sams Club. But it would put the good bacteris back in the gut area.. alot of time because of the all medications you take can mess with that area of your stomach. Also sucking on Ginger candy... it helps soothe the nausea.. if you want some really good ones I can send some to you. and oh those carnation breakfast drinks was a big help when I had no appetite.. these worked for me while on Chemo and other treatments. hang in there my friend,, you need take advantage of your rest.. lol I know it's hard I just wanted to so much but I had to learn to listen to my body.. Hugz Lorie
Lorie, my daughter got me ginger candy....you are right it works. And the yogurt goes down very well....thank you.
Love you, Janet
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